lost memories

Juli 9, 2008

„What is it like to have a deep, ‘warm’ conversation with my father, whom I have not had a relationship with for 20 years?“

„How to allow myself to be vulnerable to someone who has the capacity to exploit that vulnerability … aka: How to fall in love.“

„What is the full name of my first school teacher?“

„I have forgotten the first time I tasted ice cream. Recently, I was with my friend Emily when she fed her daughter strawberry ice cream for the first time. The little girl got very serious all of a sudden, very interested in having more of this cold, sweet, unfamiliar taste. I will wait to feed my daughter ice cream until she’s old enough to remember.“

„What I said to her that night.“

„What is it like to not be compared to my Mom? (But I also forgot what is it like to not want to be just like her, too.)“

„What did my grandmother smell like?“

„When I was young, my aunt’s best friend, who was blind, taught me a song about a studdering soldier calling to his love while we were drying the dishes. I wish I could remember that song.“

„What did it feel to be 5 years old? What was Berlin like when it was only West-Berlin? What did I see when we went to East-Berlin? What did my parents say on the night of the 9th November 1989?“

„Sometimes I forget how to be comfortable in the present moment. Sometimes I can do it & it’s wonderful!“

„What is it like to wake up and live a day with no worries or responsibilities, just experiencing things as they come?“

„What have I forgotten that I wish I hadn’t? The exact timbre and rhythm of my long-dead father’s voice, and the exact sound of his laugh.“

„I wish I could remember the first piece of literature that I read and could realize what literature is.“

„What was it like to hear the Eroica Symphony <Ludwig van Beethoven> for the first time?“

„I forget the feeling that my parents are perfect.“

„What did I actually learn in my elementary school? I forgot the most of it!“

„How does it feel to hold a cigarette?“

„What does it feel like to not feel guilty over not reaching my potential?“

„What were the words in a letter written by my grandmother to me when I was a child?“

„Aspects of my childhood and some sense of wonder of the world associated to my childhood.“

„How good it feels when someone reads to you.“

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